Hi guys!
Ho boy, have I been dead!
So, 2017 is starting to come to a close. I would also like a handful of things to come to a close as well.
I've probably already said it, but 2017 has been an incredibly rough year for me. That being said, it's also been an incredible learning experience every step of the way as well.
You all have probably known me as someone who draws anime. Maybe you know me as someone who is immature, reckless, does to much, maybe doesnt even hold up to what she says? I'd say all of those are fair, maybe even true.
One of the things that has gotten to me, which I've probably already said, is the fact that drawing recently has felt more like a job than something it always HAS been for me- a hobby, second nature, stress relief, etc. And... I don't like it. My whole life, I thought my calling in life was going to be an artist. Well, I will of course be creative always, but I think I want to pull my artwork out of the "I need to do this productively" mindset, and just do it for fun.
What that means is, after this year, I'm closing my commissions.
I want to do more Graphic Design work, and try to allocate my """productive""" time into doing that, as I feel I have a knack for it that I haven't used and have been letting go to waste. I've also had this "i feel bad for not doing ___" thing, that has been stopping me from doing literally anything. I don't want to draw anymore because I've felt like Ive wasted my time or I should be doing it productively, like WORK, but that makes me not want to do it? To a degree?
Either way, I have not drawn for MYSELF in probably YEARS now. I rarely draw OCs, I have all these stories and games I wanted to work on that I pretty much stunted and cut completely to be ""productive"".
My remedy for this.. or, my plan that is, is:
1. Trying to finish all of my current commissions this December (or early January if I don't make the cut).
2. Work on my projects
3. Do graphic design work
SO, atleast for a year, I may no longer take commissions outside of requests on stream unless it is a special occassion.
I'm going to be working on a game, that you guys might actually really really like. It has been under the name "TVT" meanwhile, and I'm excited to get that out there. Honestly a lot has been planned for it, so completing it this year is probably doable.
I also want to make products.. just, cute or visually pleasing things, like pins/notepads/books/etc
I just want to do my projects ;-;
And, I want to make videos like I've really wanted to forever. That one im not sure how probable will be, because it just depends on time I have alone lol.
SO, I am sorry if any of you wanted commissions from me. Commissioners, your art is coming soon- and those who have followed me all these years for my art, my art is coming your way soon. Please look forward to the game! More will come out here in these next few months, and I'm hoping to release the game for free.
Thank you everyone!